My Little Corner of The World

I started this blog as a way to tackle my complete lack of get up and go about weight lose (which had apparently got up and gone about a week after I started piling ON the kg"s!!).

It was a way for me to be accountable for what I am doing to my body, or not doing to it in the way of eating right and exercising it.

However I have also found, that this blog is a place for me to escape to, to get away from MY life and all the mundane, upsetting, annoying, angry and at times completely frustrating things that go along with it.

My life at the minute is hard and thats putting it lightly. I'm currently watching a parent die and trying to support other family members through it, dealing with my own feelings about (not very well I might add), all while putting on a brave face and not letting them see how well I'm NOT coping. One person who must be commended here is my beloved partner who is handling the situation very well and has been nothing short of a rock for me, especially last night when my facade slipped and everything I'd been bottling up came tumbling out.

I caught sight of photographs taken of me last week and it's shocked me into reality with a nice quick jab to my fatty layers, not that I felt it.... well...because it was my fatty layers LOL. I didn't quite realise what a heffa~lump I had turned into...how is it that when I look in the mirror, I see a gorgeous curvaceous, voluptuous woman but when I see photographs of myself what I see is a fat, big hipped, round faced lump LOL...I think my mirror is lying to me LOL!!!!

I suppose if there is an upside to all the stress in my life at the moment is that it seems to be turning my appetite off...and I seem to be losing my taste, desire and loooonged for feelings for chocolate ~ oh the horror! Hopefully this will lead to an appetite change and I will find myself craving healthy foods, rather than fatty ones.

In wrapping up this post, which seems slightly jumbled ~ even to me, I guess I just wanted to make it clear that Fatologist isn't just about my battle to recover my body and shed my weight but a place where I can find refuge from the world and express my thoughts without fearing judgment from anyone even you lot, my readers....well I hope I don't!!