Individuality

So individuality...its something we all have and yet we all choose to show it different ways. For some it might be a different kind of job, others a different hairstyle. Some may decide to get a tattoo to show themselves or piercings. Others its attitudes. Some want to be individual but are too afraid of what others think of them.

Why do we care what others think of us? Why do we let others opinions of us affect how we live and what we do? Why is it that some can skip down the street and not bat an eyelid about what others may be thinking as they do so and yet, others can't for fear of being ridiculed. I used to be the former but am not the latter....I'm working on becoming the former again....

It's time we regained our sense of selves and throw caution to the wind and did what we wanted to do, sod the consequences and what others think of us....it's time to be US in all our glory!!!

My Little Corner of The World

I started this blog as a way to tackle my complete lack of get up and go about weight lose (which had apparently got up and gone about a week after I started piling ON the kg"s!!).

It was a way for me to be accountable for what I am doing to my body, or not doing to it in the way of eating right and exercising it.

However I have also found, that this blog is a place for me to escape to, to get away from MY life and all the mundane, upsetting, annoying, angry and at times completely frustrating things that go along with it.

My life at the minute is hard and thats putting it lightly. I'm currently watching a parent die and trying to support other family members through it, dealing with my own feelings about (not very well I might add), all while putting on a brave face and not letting them see how well I'm NOT coping. One person who must be commended here is my beloved partner who is handling the situation very well and has been nothing short of a rock for me, especially last night when my facade slipped and everything I'd been bottling up came tumbling out.

I caught sight of photographs taken of me last week and it's shocked me into reality with a nice quick jab to my fatty layers, not that I felt it.... well...because it was my fatty layers LOL. I didn't quite realise what a heffa~lump I had turned into...how is it that when I look in the mirror, I see a gorgeous curvaceous, voluptuous woman but when I see photographs of myself what I see is a fat, big hipped, round faced lump LOL...I think my mirror is lying to me LOL!!!!

I suppose if there is an upside to all the stress in my life at the moment is that it seems to be turning my appetite off...and I seem to be losing my taste, desire and loooonged for feelings for chocolate ~ oh the horror! Hopefully this will lead to an appetite change and I will find myself craving healthy foods, rather than fatty ones.

In wrapping up this post, which seems slightly jumbled ~ even to me, I guess I just wanted to make it clear that Fatologist isn't just about my battle to recover my body and shed my weight but a place where I can find refuge from the world and express my thoughts without fearing judgment from anyone even you lot, my readers....well I hope I don't!!

So I decided that maybe my blog needed a theme song...or perhaps it's that me and any of my fellow FATOLOGISTS needed a theme song. However the question was....what?

I came up with at least three possibilities....the first one is ACDC's A Whole Lotta Rosie and the second was Mika's Big Girl....the third was of course Queen's Fat Bottomed Girls....all three are rather fitting but I'm not sure if there are more options out there for a possible theme song...suggestions would be more than welcome!!

~Fatologist~

Friendship is a wonderful thing.

Now I know that this isn't news but hey my brain works in mysterious ways and I routinely find myself letting my mind wander to new and weird wonderful places and I end up having random thoughts and sometimes I like to share those thoughts with completely strangers aka YOU GUYS!

Don't you love how I'm so big headed that I just PRESUME that people are reading this blog? I mean seriously now, who am I? I'm no one special so why would anyone really want to read my ramblings? Maybe I should come up with a loyalty scheme, umm say you read consistently for 3 weeks and I'll send you a t'shirt saying "I'm a wannbe Fatologist!!"
Right back on topic...I was driving to the shops yesterday when I saw three VERY large birds flying together way up high in the sky (oh lord, it rhymes and NO this is not going to be a rhyming poem that is pure coincidence and it shall cease NOW!). I noticed as I was driving (yes I'm talented and can both drive and take my eyes off the road to look upwards - and I'm yet to cause an accident in doing this!) that one of the birds was struggling to keep up with the other two, it seemed to need to take alot more "flaps" to keep up pace...and yet the other birds made sure they hung back enough to stay as a group, they compensated for one bird not being strong enough to fly as well as it should. It made me think how good friendships do this. If a friend is down and not feeling like they should, good friends will rally around and try to bolster them, offer them support and best of all, they won't fault the weaker person of the friendship, they will look at you just like you're you, no one different in any way. True friends don't see your faults or weakness they just see you!

Good morning online world...how do you find yourself this morning? I hope you're buzzing with activity and alive and well and that millions are riding you! Wow that doesn't sound good does it! If I was talking about anything else or anyone else other than the internet it would sound like he/she was the town bicycle!!!!

Could you imagine a world without the internet? I can't and it's actually scary just trying to. I would be able to blog incognito and get thousands around the world (yeah right!) to read my waffling, I could do my banking online and obsessively log in 10 times a day to check my bank balance hasn't mysteriously dwindled between now and when I logged in to check 20 minutes ago(!) and I couldn't visit some of my favourite sites, including the one I frequent most about living frugally in this material obsessed world! I mean seriously people, how much crap do we have to accumulate to make ourselves feel like we're "something"?



I'm trying to make a very big effort this year to "get back to basics" but it's actually harder than you'd think. I never realised how material based most of our lives are until I looked around and noticed all the "stuff" I had that in reality I didn't need as it wasn't enhancing my life anymore. In fact all it was doing was providing an obstacle in the back bedroom, which meant it took me half an hour to negotiate towards the ironing board every time I wanted to use it! So a couple of weeks ago, I went right through the kitchen and threw out everything I hadn't used in the past 3 months, hey if it hasn't been used obviously no need for it eh? My kitchen is now clutter free, "stuff" free and now easier to cook in, I just have to learn how to cook and I'll be able to put it to good use! I have also cleared the back bedroom up...but all that did was move the mess to the side bedroom, oh well baby steps!!

Speaking of a simpler life...well we were weren't we, less "stuff" to me means simpler! It has made me start to think a bit simpler as well, forgetting how to spell stuff, to do things, heck I may even forget to get up tomorrow and spend the whole day in bed, in fact that could be a good one for being frugal too - in bed all day = no time to go out and buy stuff, if I'm in bed I don't need to use an electricity and if I sleep all day then no food will be consumed either - hey this could be a winner on all fronts! I could get slim, while saving money - the ultimate diet and all you have to do is stay in bed all day and sleep! How come no one has thought of this before?

Unfortunately I have to report that today is going to be a bad day diet wise...I have the "parentals" coming over for morning tea this morning, which means I get to eat scones and jam and cream...ummmmm I mean I DON'T get to eat all that...uh uh not this savvy dieter none of that will be going past these lips....oh but to think the softness of a scone....the sweetness of jam and the smooth velvety texture that is cream....but NO not for me.....

~Fatologist~